I was told today that I’m not allowed to keep any type of countdown clock on my desk at work. Of course, instead of telling me…the person went to my supervisor. Which means I wasn’t told about it until almost a week later. This, of course, makes no sense to me. I always thought that it was a SNCOs responsibility to correct a person right away. Guess I was completely wrong. I’ve been working two jobs in two different offices. I’ve been doing the best that I can but it feels like no matter how much I try, it’s not good enough. Despite all my efforts, my work has successfully made me feel completely worthless and so unappreciated. It hurts. It’s like when, after I passed my PT test, my supervisor told me that he was “surprised” I passed and that he didn’t I was going to “make it”. Great suport from work, eh?
I feel bad for complaining to T about my issues. I apologize for bitching so much but he tells me that it’s his job as my boyfriend. Having him definitely makes up for my lack of work support…although sometimes it’s hard for me to see that.
Bah, I’m done now.
Until the next dew drops,
M.
